The day just can't get any better

It aint gonna be happy holidays, plagued by lectures over the weekend. Not feeling any better with the huge amount of stuff I gotta study for finals. And it just went downhill with conflicting opinions that makes me so upset.

This is not going to be a post that any happy soul wanna read. So please make your choice. I would prefer you not read on cos it might not be apprehensive.

First, I am feeling quite dejected with the kind of results I got for HRM. I passed, but it was so disappointing. I guess I put too much expectation in myself. I tell myself it's just prelims, but I got too caught up in wanting to perfect everything that I give myself troubles uncalled for.

Then, I am not getting any reply from Novotel. Perhaps they have nothing for me, or perhaps they are still looking into something for me. Of course, I hope for the latter. But it seems so far from my r e a c h. All I want is to get started.

But the thing that made me so upset that I wanna cry is the clash. I am trying to straighten out my thoughts. I admit it may not be the most wise decision/action, but I am just trying to pave something. Nothing is set. I understand what you're saying, I agree with you partially - I am not doing anything that is gonna make me worse off. And I really hope you'll be more empathetic instead of hitting the no-i-dun-approve button like straightaway. It is really so disheartening. Do you even understand?

Argh. I stopped halfway at my MM revisions and now I can't get back to it becos of the terrorists in my mind.

Was it a correct decision to send that sms? I do not know. I feel so helpless.

I can't seem to do anything. I can't seem to do anything right. I can't seem to do anything right to live my life properly. I am just feeling terribly terribly down this moment I wanna rot away.

Uncalled for. Totally uncalled for.