In the midst of prelims now. And I can't wait for everything to end. 6 more days to end of prelims and 2.5 months to end of main exams! I can't wait to stop studying I can't wait to get a job and I can't wait to get started on a real job.
While mugging, I can't help but be drifted off to build castles in the air. I want to get THE results, I want to get THE job, I want to get THE pay, and I want THE well deserved getaway. Owells who doesn't? The main point is, I gotta drag my mind back to mugging mode each time it floats away. Which means I take quite a long time to settle into my books. My mind is constantly and endlessly dreaming about my desires. That is why I can't wait for everything to fall in place nicely.
I am quite worried about my future career becos till now, I am still in very vague thoughts of the kind of job/industry I am serious about. Just like 3 years ago, I chose this degree cos I can't decide. 3 years later, I am still in the same state of mind. Hahah. Everything seem to interest me a bit.
I realise I gotta be stronger and more determined in the path that I'm moving. After some discussions and self realisation, I conclude that I possess quite a weak spirit. Just like after my As, I was not at all motivated to find another avenue after getting the rejection letters and it was my dad who pushed my life forward for me. Issues about my degree, my job, my bank account, et cetera, are so procrastinated by me that andy gotta 'chase' me so I get my chores done. Claudine asked why I didn't go for summer school and I was stumped cos I wanted to, but kept procrastinating! Can I please learn to be more proactive and swift and steadfast! I want to have lots of drive in my life, doing things, making things happen, and live with no/minimum regrets!
I am gonna make that happen! But before that, let me put in my 100% for my final lap before I start thinking about other things.
Till prelim ends.
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